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I'm not feeling well today. I wasn't last night at all but I just didn't say anything. I feel like something is wrong inside my abdomen. I thought I was finally healing but I guess I was wrong. I had alot of pain last night and some today too. I have to go see my Dr. tomorrow but I don't really want to go or even tell him about it because I'm scared to death of having another operation. I don't want to ever go thru that again. So I hope nothing is wrong. Bellybutton is STILL bleeding. It's been 18 days! :-( I feel like I have changed. Since the surgery I just feel different. My attitude about everything and the whole reason for the surgery to begin with has changed and really I have been quite depressed since then. Anesthesia sucks. Ugh. I don't even know what I'm doing or thinking to be honest. I just don't care anymore. I know I will go in there and talk to the Dr. and come right out with a script for Clomid and Novarel and be right back to square one with ultrasounds and bloodwork and shots. I know I only have to say no more. But I'm scared of that as well. *sigh* THIS SUCKS.
