it's very late... after 4 am. i just had a long, cathartic (emotionally purging not in the laxative way!) night. i feel good now. thank you for that. And I'm the Queen of Wands. :-) *kisses*

"Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds
Before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand
But I keep livin' this day like
The next will never come

Oh help me but don't tell me
To deny it
I've got to cleanse myself
Of all these lies till I'm good
Enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm
Bettin' high
So I'm beggin' you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love"

-Fiona Apple "Criminal"

i left my mark at... 4:16:28 AM