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Well maybe I do like to talk too much and maybe I don't always have interesting things to say but I like this Blog and I like the concept of it. Even though what is a personal thought gets sent out to the public for all to see and judge. Friends, family, perfect strangers... It's ok though. I used to worry about being judged and maybe I still do in some ways. But for the most part now in my life, I'm more like... "this is who I am and if you don't like it, don't let the door hit you in the ass on your way out"
5 words to describe me? Funny, Emotional, Eclectic, Bizarre, Loving. I think eclectic and bizarre are alot alike but oh well! It really is hard to find 5 words to describe yourself.
My favorite part of me is my belly button. I don't like too much about myself. But I have always loved my belly button and have wanted it pierced but hey... I could lose some weight first! *LOL* Anyway when I had my surgery, the Dr. cut me INSIDE my belly button. I guess for cosmetic reasons to hide a scar or whatever. Earlier today I was kinda devastated. I got a make up mirror and in bright light I had a look at what he did. What happened to my perfect belly button? It used to be this bottomless pit of a hole. I couldn't see anything but black space before. Now I think he took some skin and twisted it and stitched it! I cried. It's no longer perfect to me. The one thing I clung to about myself. He changed me with one swift cut and probably only one stitch which I can't even see where it is. *sigh* Would a scar have been better? I don't know... cause I think scars are sexy actually. But would I have liked one below my belly button? Not like anyone gets up close and has a look anyway I reckon. But I know it's changed and that's enough to bug the hell out of me. It's on the inside but still... it's there. :-(
Time to go watch Howard Stern and bead something or other. Nighty Night. (And to my own private tarot reader... thank you for being you and even for having 'whims' I know you care)
