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Why is it doctors always say you are normal when you feel far from it? Everything you experience... 'that's normal' 'oh you're normal' 'nothing to worry about it's normal' When you talk to other people about their experiences on the same thing, you find out that you are not really doing all that good compared. But I'm supposed to trust a Dr., MALE Dr., who wouldn't have a clue what it's like to be a woman or what we go through.
So I go see him. He's in some major hurry. He reads off my surgical report, very fast, mumbling. I interrupted a couple times as I was trying to write some stuff down. I have 9 pics of my surgery and I wanted to know what's what but didn't get much of a chance. He seemed irritated to explain to me. When I went to the pre-op appt, we sat in his office and he talked at length about it all. Brian said cause BEFORE surgery he's, legally covering his ass and now that it's over with, there's not much to worry about in the dr.'s eyes. How was I to know he would take a course in speed talking since my last appointment?
He had me lie down so he could check my incisions. He looked at my bellybutton. Said everything was fine. Told me he wanted my blood that day to check my Progesterone level to see if I ovulated on my own this month. (somehow I doubt it). He wants me to take Provera to start my cycle and I was like nooooooooo way! I hate that stuff. I will wait to start on my own thank you very much. I asked him if I could go on fertility pills instead of injections this time around. He seemed reluctant. Before when I asked, he said OK. But now he seemed like he didn't want to do that but he did say "ok, we can TRY it, but if it doesn't work, it's back to injections" :-( Injections cost $400 a month and the pills are only about $15. So I hope the pills work. Last time I was resistant to them and he had me taking 3 months worth in 3 weeks and still nothing.
Infertility sucks. I am 35 years old. I have something called PCOS and there is no cure. It just seems unfair to me that nothing is going right. After we left, we got in the elevator. We were in there with a young woman and her new baby and a pregnant girl who looked all of 16 years old.
I think I'm just gonna have to become numb and cold to all this. I don't care anymore. :-(
