felt like bloggin' i guess. bloggin' <-------- not the most sexiest word but could be kinda eh? "i blogged her good last night!" or maybe... "god i just have to blog that guy!" *lol* ok my mood is slightly improving. i said slightly so don't go gettin' all excited dangit!

i have several blogs i visit daily. sometimes many times a day. cause i like this whole idea of seeing what's on other people's minds. i have emailed a few people and been emailed. some really cool chicks out there, i have to say. it's comforting sometimes to know that any depression i'm having might be somehow normal since it seems like plenty of people go through it along with me. or perhaps they are screaming angry like i have been too.

then you might read some stuff that is kinda cryptic and you just try to figure out what the other person was thinking when they wrote it...

i miss some of my old net friends that i have been out of touch with for so long. i wish i knew where everyone was and what they are up to these days. it sucks losing touch with people you care about... but it just happens and maybe neither of you mean to let it happen... just does.

for the person who emailed me on the 9th of June... once again i'm gonna ask that you please email me back and tell me who you are. that is if you even come here or read this. i'm just gonna have to mail you for the ummm 5th time and bug you again and i'll put the address to my page on there again so dammit tell me already!

probably isn't even for me. probably it's for some other Kim. i get email meant for other Kim's all the dang time. sucky eh? i always think "goodie!!! email for ME ME MEEEE" and it's for someone else! i'm good about it. i will always reply back and tell them they got the wrong person. once some guy sent an email all in spanish and i had to use a translator to figure it out. he was all in love with the 'kim' in the email and i mailed to tell him i was the wrong one. well he kept emailing back and saying 'but i love you! you have to remember me! you are my fiancee!" *lol* took me several emails to get this guy to understand. here i was typing in english and sticking it in a spanish translator trying to get my point across. who knows what i was really telling him! he just kept wondering why i was denying him his love of me! *lol*

i'm really only writing here cause my friend Hambone comes here all day long just to see if i have signed and i think he's the only one who visits me here! so hello stalker Hambone! get a life monkey boy! *heh* :)

i got over my awful evening last night but i still feel freaky about it and i still don't want to discuss it so there! hahaha... and now i'm just rambling. i was taking a lil nap and that helped my attitude and then cody came on and woke me which is always ok by me. but he's having a very sad night and i'm very sad for him. :-(

damn mercury all to hell. that's all i know. *sigh*

i talked to my sister yesterday for a few hours. she's 5 months pregnant with her first child after going through in vitro fertilization. i admire her strength so much. she went through alot to get this far. i'm so proud of her and happy for her. she's coming to visit me soon. i'm gonna go home to PA at the beginning of july. it's cool that i will be able to update my blog from there. then on the 5th her and her husband are gonna follow us back to ohio here to our house. she's so cool. so is he. we always enjoy having them out to visit and it's been a long time. gonna take in a ball game on the 6th.

man i'm writing some boring stuff. i'm just happy to be writing anything at all.

journey's on the mp3 player...

"it's been a mystery... but still they try to see... why something good can hurt so bad."

"love will survive somehow, some way"

"so many stormy nights... so many wrong or rights...
neither could change their headstrong ways..."

"only so many tears you can cry... til the heartache is over...
and now you can say... your love will never die"

"i wonder, who's crying now..."




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