i feel... so not here today. i'm completely angry inside. and what pisses me off about it, i guess is that it's not who i am. yes i can be a bitch but when it's out of my control cause of some medication i'm on, well that upsets me.

i woke up very grumpy, tired and angry. i feel like i'm so out of control and i'm afraid i will piss everyone around me off. i need to get a grip. this is just the beginning of this stupid medicine. i hate feeling like this. like i have no control over the situation.

dammit i keep coughing and it's wanting to turn into hiccups and i can't let it cause i HATE the hiccups.

i wish i could reach down inside of myself and rip out this ball of confused anger i have in me. i think i should just sleep so i can manage it better or something. trying to take a deep breath and calm down and maybe i should go work on a craft or something to relax. i still need to make some soap and lip balm yet. or clean my damn messy house. definitely need to do that.

i just want to be alone.

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