*sigh* this evening has been just awful. and NO i do NOT want to talk about it!!!!!!! :-( i just want to whine about it here without going into detail. even though this is a diary and it should make me feel better to talk about shit here... it's just not gonna. so i think i will just go cry some more only my eyes hurt me right now and my head aches as it is. fuck it.

listening to this song right now on repeat... finally found the mp3 a few ago...

"and how she loves me...
i don't understand.
when the time won't change me...
perhaps she can.

and i feel like trying
when we're apart
and i feel like dying

god don't let me break her heart
god don't let me break her heart
god don't let me break her heart

my selfish anger
and i just run away...
but our perfect times
always makes me stay...

god don't let me break her heart
god don't let me break her heart
god don't let me break her heart
when the hearts fall..."

~Edwin McCain - Hearts Fall

i left my mark at... 11:00:41 PM