well in another hour and a half i will start my injections again. i'm feeling a bit nervous about it all. i'm sure it will be fine. the very first injection i ever gave myself back in March, caused me to cry afterwards. not from pain. it really didn't hurt at all... just from the emotion of what all i was undertaking and the hopes that it would work. which it didn't.

now this is a whole new game to me this month. because i know what the failure feels like all too well and i have more dread this time. last time i was a bit excited about doing the shots. until all the disappointments came every other day when they weren't working so well.

i just want it to be different this time. at least i get to do double so i will know by tuesday if there is any hope that this is gonna produce some eggs at least. that's only PART of it though. i still have to ovulate and have inseminations and stuff. oh please oh please oh please.