today hasn't been the best day for me. i went to my therapy appt and that went ok. talked about alot. i have now touched on everything i have wanted to i guess. she's a good listener. i like janice alot.

we took the dog to the vet and that is where the bad news comes in. :( they tested her for diabetes and she is severely diabetic. they said if her blood test came back at 180 or higher she was diabetic. well hers was a 480 and her urine came back at over 1000 which was off their charts. they said she was very close to a diabetic coma. they think she has another disease. possibly cushings and she has severe cataract blindness brought on suddenly by the high sugar level. they also found a lump under her neck and it could be cancerous. they kept her for the night to put her on IV fluids and insulin to keep her from going into a coma. i feel so guilty. like i should have known. i should have taken her in sooner. why did i wait? the cataracts can end up causing her horrible pain. i feel like the worst dog mom in the world. we might get to bring her home tomorrow if they can get her insulin regulated but they really don't know. the rest of the bloodwork has to be done too to see what else is wrong. i feel like my heart is breaking. :(