well well well. what a boring freakin' day this has been! let's see. i have nothing to say. i am gonna take a home pregnancy test tomorrow with these cheapy generic tests i got off the net. if it's negative i will survive cause it's still early and all. so i won't be upset... YET! last night i was in pain again. well i posted after 10pm that i was. that pain lasted til about midnight when i started spotting again. off and on til 2am and today nothing. but i'm nauseated today. these are all GREAT signs. but still i'm scared to get hopeful and i'm scared to have another miscarriage. i want so bad to be pregnant so i can go home and enjoy my thanksgiving holiday and not have to sit there with two pregnant people discussing how they 'feel'. i swear i will leave out of there crying. it won't be pleasant for me. so we may not even go. i don't know. we have the blind dog to worry about too. it's hard enough getting her used to her own home let alone the home of people she hardly ever goes to. :(

maybe something interesting will happen and i will have more to write later. yeah yeah right! (hi Rachael!)

oh yeah go here... Stupid.Com it's a funny site and they sell goofy stuff too. :)