hey i'm not even drunk here and still i feel justified to rattle on. *lol*

i hate this woman whom i don't really even know and i have no reason to hate her but i do. she's far enough away from me but too close to something i want for myself. so i hate her. it's my blog. i will say what i want here. go away if you don't like it. heh heh heh. anyway that was just on my mind for some reason. it's a new year and i'm bored and sad and lonely and seething with jealousy for some reason and i can't even explain why. this is going to be a better year i hope right? right???? please say yes!!! ramble ramble rattle on ramble. blah blah blah blah.... talking 100mph and shit and whatever and blame it on the rainnnnnnnn.... messaging hambone right now and trying not to scream. why? why do i want to scream? hmmm just do. cause i can't be where i want to be and it's fucking killing me for some reason right this very freakin' second!!!! please excuse this post when you read it cause maybe i'm just having a mental moment and i can be ignored about it mmmmkay? ok. good.