brian's mom just called us. brian's brother and his wife just had their baby. a lil tiny baby girl with a head full of black hair. she was born nearly a month early i think. i know she was due in may. her name is brooke emily. she was born at 7:44pm and she is 6 pounds 9 ounces and 18 inches long.

i'd be lying if i said i weren't incredibly jealous and i'd be lying if i said i didn't want to cry. my sister is due to have her lil boy in June. it's just hard for me.

this is the dream i have always wanted. i only hope it comes to me too.

i AM happy for them and i will send flowers to the hospital tomorrow.