i feel like i'm gonna throw up. i have been crying since i wrote that last post. i finally decided to go ahead and go against the dr. and mix up two amps. i will inject it in a half hour. i want this so badly. i had to do this. and like some miracle, freddie just called me. he never just calls like that when i need him so much. and he did. he was 10 minutes too late to stop me from doing 2 amps but he agreed with me on it. he's just worried about me hurting myself. he knows how much i want a baby so he supports my decisions pretty much. thankfully. i feel a million times better after talking to him but i wish i could stop this crying. thank you my angel. *kisses*