well i didn't dance shit away. ugh. i still feel anxious and angry and i don't know why. i'm fixing to have a nervous attack here and i can't stop the thoughts in my head. those bad thoughts that i shouldn't ever think. cause really i don't want to do anything to myself ya know? it just seems easier somehow. yeah yeah i know. blah blah blah. everyone loves me, everyone cares. so why doesn't it matter to me? why can't i make the thoughts go away? i'm one crazy bitch i swear. i don't even understand myself sometimes. please call me cody. pleaseeeee i need you to talk to me. tonight. please. it's 3 am here. please call me before you go to work in the morning. :( i need you. i NEED you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :*(