i'm such a mess lately. i can't really think straight. i try... i got alot on my mind. i know what i need to do. have to do. should do. doing it is entirely something else. when someone you truly love betrays you and you need them to make it right again... i mean what do you do? you could say goodbye. you could give them yet another chance... and yes... you could just say goodbye. because even if they know what they have to do to make it right, doesn't mean they will do it. and you can wait and wonder. but things will never be the same as long as you are wondering... i can't live like that. :*( i need to be on my own for awhile. i want to be left alone. my hope and my trust and my respect have gone from me. they're just gone. all i want to do is sleep. that's really all that i DO do after all. sleep and play with the dogs just to keep them happy. well i'm not happy... and no amount of "i truly love you's" is going to erase things and fix things just like that. it's not. and you know it.