i'm feelin' a lil sad right now. gee. i wonder why. *sigh* scared myself reading about women's cancers and then of course i got a phone call from him. things need to be settled on that front. i dont know exactly what to say. i mean i guess i know what i want to say, but just not how to put it, to get my point across of why this is so important to me. i just want to know things. i deserve that. *sigh* i'm sick of... arguing the point. so i won't argue. looks like i will end up writing a snail mail letter. and then heal my broken heart. blah blah blah. i need to stop listening to sappy music. thank god jenny jones is on in a half hour. i need mindless tv right now. ya know?