eeech. bad headache. bad backache. sore throat again and sore legs. go me. bethany is staying the night. and we are babysitting andrew too. been a helluva day. he was his usual rotten self, making me question any kind of parenting skills i ever would have or could have had. i think i would kick my child's ass from here to god knows where. just somewhere far if it was like him. yet i love this lil boy. i can be furious at him and then later i go to him and hug him and cuddle him. right now he's upstairs in bed watching Finding Nemo after a day of screaming (not just him but all of us) and i could have left him alone but i went up and laid on the bed and he said "whatcha doing kim?" and i said "i'm watching Finding Nemo with you Bonehead" and he just said "oh" like he was all happy and then he slid down to where i was, put his back to me and pulled my arm around him. i never saw the movie and so as i was watching the scenes he would turn around and look at my expression. i do so love him. i just wish he was... easier. *sigh*