man i don't have anything to say today. no surprise there. i lead the most boring life of anyone i know. i think bethany is gonna spend friday and saturday night with us. no plans for my new year's eve. brian works that night. cody used to call me every year at my midnight cause it's an hour earlier than his. now i wonder if that will happen this year. probably not. we have grown so far apart. sometimes that makes me ache inside and sometimes i think it's for the best. i guess that really depends on my mood for the day. if i'm incredibly sad, it's usually cause i miss him and how he used to be with me. we had so much fun once upon a time. spent hours talking... he was my best friend in all the world. the one who knew me inside and out. now i feel kinda lost. i installed a newer version of icq today and before i did that, i was checking my received folder to make sure i didn't lose anything. i found a couple things he made me and it made my heart sting... was so sweet... yeah. once upon a time like i said.

night night.