i really don't have alot to say lately.

with all that's been going on, everything else seems quite trivial. i keep wondering when it's gonna hit me again very hard. and when is it gonna be ok to laugh again and enjoy life? especially when so many others are suffering right now. it's too easy to not think about it when you are removed from it by distance. when you can just easily shut off the television... i think i feel pretty guilty about that. but if i don't turn off the tv and if i don't ignore the patriotic emails i'm getting and if i don't tell my friends not to talk about it when they call... then i'm gonna lose it. and i'm trying hard not to do that.

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