i have been spotting the past couple days and today it's more of a watery red staining so i guess i'm starting. in the past 4 days i have had 4 negative pregnancy tests. 3 aimsticks and just a few minutes ago a First Response Early Result. i thought the spotting was an irratation of my cervix from the progesterone suppositories as i thought the progesterone would hold off my cycle but i guess not. i was scheduled for a urine test at my RE's office tomorrow. i just called to cancel. it's a waste of an appt cost and test for my insurance company and co-pay for me as well as a referral i always have trouble getting and the receptionist didn't want me to cancel saying blah blah our urine tests are more sensitive. hello? i know my own body. i know i'm not pregnant. so now she's making me wait til a nurse calls me back. *sigh* :( i don't know why i was hopeful for this cycle. i have been doing this all too long. i should just give up already with this. i don't even know what to do about the next cycle. if i'm having my period... well i'm going out of town for the holiday and i would need to be around for cd3 ultrasound. i don't even want to go anymore anyway.

if i don't get benched next month... christmas is supposed to be the time for miracles, right? :(