i feel blah. just got done calling my mom and stuff. it's going on 4pm. i want to go to dinner but when i suggested it, brian said this... "TODAY?????????????" so i guess that means no. hahaha

ya'll... i'm not pregnant. i know it. i'm spotting and cramping. today was actually the day i should have tested. so i figure if i really don't get going by monday, i will test then and get the show back on the road for the very last time. :( this spring and early summer is gonna suck. my original due date when i was pregnant was to have been may 8th. well my sister-in-law is due in april and my lil sister is due in June. so we were all pregnant around the same time. but they got to move on and i didn't and that is really hard for me to take sometimes. i'm happy for them just sad for me.

oh well, need to find something to do. bye.