when i wrote that about being in pain, hours ago, who knew it would get TEN times worse?!?!?! :(

well it did. i finally fell asleep for an hour and a half and since i felt a lil wee bit better, i took my shower already and stuff. i didn't intend to get up here for another half hour but i'm glad now that i'm just ready to go. i will have the 2nd IUI in 3 hours and then i can come home and lie down. i just want it to be over with. i'm scared about how much it's gonna hurt me this morning. i can barely walk. i can't bend. it hurts to go to the bathroom. it hurts to sit up and it hurts to lie down. i just hurt. period. :( so my legs are a lil bit stubbly since i couldn't bend well to shave them and i dropped my lotion bottle on the floor and could barely pick it up. my back is killing me. i think my ovaries are so big that they are pressing on some nerves cause my thighs and knees hurt and my feet tingle. and my goddamn chubbo dog wants me to keep picking her up and putting her on the bed. she has to go to the vet tonight for her sugar check. i think brian might have to take her by himself. depends on if i feel ok. *sigh*

i'm a fucking mess. and i brought it all onto myself willingly. please oh please oh please let me get pregnant and STAY pregnant for all this that i am going thru.