what to do? what to do? make a valentine graphic for ya'll... wax poetic on how much love stinks, post love songs and hearts and pretend things are loverly and perfect, wish with all my heart that they were. be someone's special valentine and have them actually care the way they claim to. a million things i could do. and yet nothing to do. i will cheer up by midnight. i'm gonna try. that's all i know. i'm not terribly emotional... but it feels like it's just brewing under the surface and perhaps threatening to spill over. i got the cutest valentine's today from Trey and Jazzy and i got to talk to Jazz on the phone and she sounded so beautifully angelic and saying she loves me and misses me and she loved the package i sent her. it made me feel so good to hear her lil voice. i wished so much at that very moment to have her cuddling in my lap so i could hug her close to me while she plays with my hair. god how i miss that lil girl.