blah. bah humbug. it's too damn close to christmas and i just don't give a rat's ass this year. well ok that's been almost every year. what i wouldn't give to go back to Germany and spend the holiday there. i truly miss that. the ChristKindl Markt's. i think that's spelled right. perhaps not. it just all seemed so magical for some reason? i don't know. it's WAY more commercialized here. makes me ill. buy me buy me buy me. it's been an icky year for me i think. i have zero motivation.

sleepy sickness today. damn nighttime Tylenol Flu meds i took last night. it's been all i could do to stay awake.

why does anyone bother to read this? i never have anything funny, cool or even interesting to say.