grrrrrrr.... lately this blogger doesn't want to work right .... my posts never get posted til hours later or something. anyway i'm just feeling alot better today than i was monday. and i got to spend a long time talking to fred online and he helps me in so many ways that i greatly need. still i need to seek help elsewhere too and so i shall do that. but i got a smile on my face tonight and that's a step right there. now if this dumb blogger will work for me and let me smile longer!