i have bad bad cramps. i want to die. :(

i guess i will be doing injections again come tuesday... providing i'm cyst-free. why does this all feel like a nightmare to me?

i had a fairly good night talking to my freddie on the phone for 4 hours in spite of the pain i'm in. he helped me take my mind off of it some. our talks were quite deep.

i want a different life. but i want some of it to stay the same. i'm rambling. i need to go to sleep. or try.