why is blogger still not working? *sigh* oh well i can just post and it will show up later. it's nearly 4:30 am. i got a couple hours sleep. kelly called and woke me at nearly 2. i couldn't sleep after that just dozed a lil and then freddie called me. i talked to him for over an hour. i'm feeling so much more calm now. he even lets me be mean to him and still he loves me and comforts me and takes care of me. god thank you. i need him. he really does care even if he is a man and men screw up everything. ha ha .... if i try.... i can get an hour and a half's sleep before i need to get a shower. ciao.