well i'm back from the dr's. my ultrasound revealed that my left ovary is 5 1/2 cm large! which is twice the normal size and it had 3 cysts on it. one was 2 1/2 cm's big and my right ovary had some cysts as well but not too badly.

i don't understand that. cause my left ovary only had one mature follicle and my right one had 4. but now i'm on another rest cycle and i have to take birth control pills again. :( he said i can do one more cycle and then he would like to see me move to IVF but he understands if i don't or can't do that. i just need some time to re-evaluate things and decide if i want to risk throwing away $10,000 or not. maybe we can switch in the fall to an insurance that will cover most of the cost. it's too much to think about right now. i'm disappointed about having to do a rest cycle but in a way i'm relieved. i hate pushing my body so much as it is. now i know why i was in so much pain this time around the past few days. i feel better today pain-wise but i'm still bleeding pretty badly. :(

well i'm gonna go lie down and get some sleep. i barely slept last night at all.